Love Your Enemies

I had an awful encounter with a customer and was so put off especially when I had already made provision to host the party at a last minute and even gave many freebies in the process.

Well, to cut the long story short, I was verbally abused. I felt so angry and as I was reading this book by Pastor Sunday Adelaja on Church Shift, the Lord spoke to me ... "Love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in Heaven. For He gives His sunlight to both the evil and the good, and He sends rain on the just and the unjust alike. Matt 5:44-46 ... But you are to be perfects, even as your Father in heaven is perfect. vs 48.

Oh man, it is so difficult! The journey of walking with Christ and being the Salt & the Light is getting tougher by the day ....

A consolation in the midst of a crisis .... Hooray! Praise the Lord! 2 of my tuition kids received Christ during 2 different 'My Hope' parties seperately. I am so thrilled ..... God really gave me a very special Christmas present this year!

A Date ...

Don't get me wrong. I was not the date .. rather was there as a chaperon. It's really quite fun to be able to be the 'bridge' or a not-so-nice term called 'the match-maker'. Hee! Well, God-willing, would like to see something good come out of this friendship. God makes all things beautiful in His time. Ecc 3:11

Back From Timor

We had a great week in Viqueque and the 3 villages. God was so good, showing us His favor again and again. From the weather, to our food, water and eletricity.

Enlarge My Tent

The Lord reminded me this morning to enlarge the place of my tent, stretch my tent curtains wide, not to hold back; to lengthen my cords, strengthen my stakes. What a promise! I will spread out to the right and to the left, my descendants will dispossess nations and settle in their desolate cities.

Isa 54:4 "Do not be afraid, you will not suffer shame. Do not fear disgrace, you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood.

Recently, the Lord has been demonstrating the Father's love to me evidently. What a comfort the Father bestows on those He loves ...

The Big Day for G & V

Finally! We attended the wedding of G & V today. Wanna bless them with many good years together and may the Lord watch over their coming in and going out. The Lord build a thick hedge of protection over them and grant joy & peace.

In Times Of Trouble

I feel that I am in lots of personal health trouble ... from cough, to flu to diarrhea to high blood pressure etc. I meditated on the Word of the Lord today from Ps 27 .. One thing I have desired of the Lord, That will I seek, that I may dwell in the house of the Lord, all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to inquire in His temple. For in the time of trouble, He shall hide me in His pavilion, He shall hide me in His Tabernacle He shall hide me. He shall set me high upon a Rock.

I am also learning to rise above my negative environment and situation although things are getting difficult. I tried to fast and pray today and was battling unbearable headaches and pain. Sigh. God, what is happening? I cannot understand... sob sob! I am so desperate for an answer and a breakthrough. I need some answers ....

Find Rest, O My Soul

Have been feeling ill .. wondering if it is an infection, a flu bug, a sore throat or an impending illness. Eeks ..

Speaking to my soul to find rest and hope in God .. Ps 62:5. He alone is my Rock and my Salvation. He is my Fortress and i will not be shaken. Trust in Him at all times, pour out my heart to Him for God is my refuge.

Was visiting Alice's M-I-L' wake... Life is fragile and precious. We could be here today, gone tomorrow. God gave her breath to live life to the fullest, enjoyed every moment of her days. Thank God she is now safe in the arms of Jesus ...

Re-Submission of Application

Today I re-submitted my HLE application to HDB .. pray that the application comes through ... ;)

God is amazing .. He surprises me far beyond what I could ask or imagine! Must keep walking faithfully and trusting Him completely cos His plans are for my good and my welfare.

An Only Child

Just visited Con's mum in hosp. Am claiming complete healing for her as well as her salvation.

... it's really not easy being an only child .. having to tend to your parents alone .. running up and down. Thank God for the community of believers and for God's sustenance.

Parents, please have more kids. Having an extra pair of hands sure helps!! Ha!

Loyalty and Kindness

At 2.30 am, the Lord woke me to read a passage of Scripture from Prov 3:3. Was experiencing a test where the Lord was putting me through to guard my heart against an offence, largely because it was not my fault and not within my control.

The Lord reminded me to never let loyalty and kindness leave me, tie them around my neck as a reminder, write them deep within my heart. Then I will find favor both with God and people and earn for myself a good reputation. I am to trust the Lord with all my heart, not to depend on my own understanding, especially in this delicate situation and to seek His will in all that I do, believing that He will definitely show me which path to take.

I thank God for a breakthrough after last evening's ordeal. Indeed Prov 3:13 is true! Joyful is the person who finds wisdom, the one who gains understanding. As I chose to submit my heart to the Lord and acted right, I received an affirmation in the situation and am praying that all will go well.

Miraculous Open Doors

The Lord has been opening many doors for me as I prepare ahead. The way He has been affirming and confirming my moves are really miraculous. No wonder Matthew 6:33 says that if we Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, all these things will be added to us. We need not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will care for itself.

This is really the love of God, the Heavenly Father. The birds of the air neither sow nor reap yet God feeds them. We are definitely of much worth to God compared to the birds.

Lord, give us an un-offendable heart ... supernatural boldness, strength and stamina to run the next lap for you!

Awesome Presence

Today's worship service in Hall 10 was awesome. I really felt the presence of the Lord and was sobbing in tears during the worship as SP released such prophetic words. There was a supernatural and sweet anointing all around.

God ministered to my heart and assured me about my existence through the song .."Jesus, I believe in You, Jesus I belong to You, You the reason that I live, the reason that I sing, with all I am". Indeed, I was declaring back to my own heart of my faith and trust in Jesus and that I really belonged to Him and no one else. He knows what lies ahead for me and I can be assured.

Love Your Neighbour As Yourself

SP shared at 1728 meeting about the above mentioned. Was pondering much about this and Os Hillman summarised this well for us ....

Today's Prayer
Dear God, Are there any areas in my life that have not come under the lordship of Christ? Is there any lack of obedience that will prevent me from being used fully by you? God, please search me, and know my heart; try me, and know my anxieties; and see if there is any wicked way in me. Please lead me in the way everlasting (based on Psalm 139:23-34). I praise you and lift you up, for you are God Almighty. In Jesus' name I thank You. Amen.

Completing the WorkTGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman09-17-2008
"I have brought You glory on earth by completing the work You gave Me to do" (John 17:4).
Have you ever had a big project to do and felt great when you'd finished the job and it was a big success? Angie worked on a big project in the 1996 Olympics which involved placing 2000 family members of foreign athletes into Christian homes. It was a massive project, but it was a rewarding experience to see the job completed.

The Lord has revealed to us that the number one thing we are to do is love the Lord our God with all our heart and to love our neighbor as ourselves. His desire is for us to know Him and the power of His resurrection. These mandates deal with our relationship with Him. The fruit of this relationship must then result in our glorifying Him by completing the work He has given each of us to do. It will become a by-product of this relationship, not an end in itself.

What is the work God has called you to do? Jesus never did anything the Father had not instructed Him to do. He lived in such communion with the Father that He knew when to turn left and when to turn to the right. Is it possible to have such a relationship with our heavenly Father? I think that if it weren't, He would not have given us such an example.

"Call to Me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know" (Jer. 33:3). What has He called you to do? Perhaps you are called to be the best lawyer in your city or the best advertising executive or the best office worker or assembly line person in your company. Whatever work He has called you to, He will use you as His instrument to accomplish something that He has uniquely prepared you to do.

When our life is complete, what a glorious day it will be if we can each say, "I have completed the work You gave me to do." This will have brought great glory to Him.

Timor - Response

On Thur, I attended a Timor Prayer Meeting and felt God tug at my heart to serve a year there, especially with the kids in the schools. As I make preparation of my heart, I am committing the timing as well as trusting God to open doors because, I believe that He will make all things beautiful in His time.

Am praying as I just saw the news that Timor Leste was hit by an earthquake that measured 6.5 on the Richter scale today.

What Are Our Fathers Like?

We had a wonderful but teary time of sharing what our earthly fathers were like or is like during our G12 meeting tonight. The Lord has been revealing to us different aspects of His heart and His life through our earthly fathers. We are also learning to see God and appreciate and treat our earthly fathers much better.

There was a time of ministry when some of us shared how abusive, controlling, angry, flirtatious, non-communicative, inexpressive fathers we had and had to take time to repent and seek God's forgiveness for feeling resentful and bitter towards them. The Lord led us to intercede for each other and, in particular, for the sick among us as well as for a little unwanted foetus which aborted itself recently.

Personally for me, Papa was a lovely and sweet man. Very unassuming and doted on me, being the youngest and a girl. He loved the family very much and my fondest memories of him was that he spent time bringing us on various outings, teaching me to ride a bicycle, encouraging me to take up driving etc. He was a man devoted to his work and loved my mother a lot. He would wait downstairs for her when she returned late and he was such a great provider and protector of the family. He was also filial to his mother and aunt who used to live together with us. The only regret was that he left us too soon when he lost a battle to cancer at the age of 46. I was 16 years old then.

Guess the Lord is bringing a healing to our hearts and a deeper revelation about Himself so that we could better gaze at His beauty and majesty!

Principal's meeting

Thank God that the NTUC meeting with the Principals went well. I felt God's presence with all the wonderful prayers as well as all the support. God granted favor!

Soon after the meeting, I already received news that a few centres would like to pilot the program and would like me to meet them again. I now had an idea of what bidding for a tender was like! Haha!

God really has great plans for me - plans to prosper me, not to harm me! I constantly have to remind myself of such promises when the going gets tough.

I'm remembering a dear friend's birthday today. Bless A with strength, joy, rest and a new walk with JESUS! Enjoy!!

Father's Heart

I attended a Father Heart conference in the midst of my busy schedule.

As I was listening to the speaker, I was asking the Father what He thought of my heart... and was committing my heart and my total being, especially the areas of my fears to Him. I felt assured that My Father was directing and comforting me.

In fact, I received tangible tokens of appreciation and affirmation from PAPA. Can you imagine? I conducted 2 different parties for 2 different families today and I received 2 different tokens of appreciation from them. It's unusual because they 'pay' me to conduct parties instead they gave me gifts on top of my service. I was awestruck! More than that, one of them owns a famous R & G cake shop which we patronise often. How blessed I felt!

I am learning to partner with Papa God with all my up and coming projects. He is aligning my heart to develop a new relationship and intimacy with Him! Just like Jesus who is constantly doing the will of the Father, I want to do likewise. Nite...

Infection

I have been fighting an infection, both throat and UTI for the past week. It has been horrendous ... due to hectic and busy schedules with holiday programmes for KA and 'drilling' of kids taking PSLE. Sigh. Actually, I am quite amazed that I am still alive. Have been working 15 hours or more a day for the past week. Ha!

I have been clinging on to Phil 1:13. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength. Only the strength of the Lord and love of the Father prevents me from literally collapsing!

Are You Afraid To Die?

In my distress today, the Lord surprised me. As I was walking along the road on my way for lessons, I was asking the Lord a question, "Where will my pulpit be, Lord?" Had an almost instant reply in the same day.

While I was at tuition today, so engrossed in the kid's lessons, there was a 'scene' about the fact that they were afraid to die. I grabbed the opportunity, took out a piece of paper and started to draw a John 3:16 diagram http://www.simusic.com/john316/john316_13.html for them. I wanted to share my hope in Christ and that I knew where I was going when I died.

The kids were so ecstatic that they were silent and listened to me explain the diagram. (Usually, they would be chatty and noisy!!) I knew that I had 'touched' on a raw nerve and I had given an answer to their fears. At the end of the session, I even taught them how to receive Jesus into their hearts. I concluded that ,"When you are ready, let me know. I will pray with you and lead you to invite Jesus into your heart." Woo wee!! I was thrilled just seeing that the kids were connecting with me.

From there, they were so co-operative and the girl even mentioned that she would like me to teach her forever! Oh, what a comfort to my aching heart!
God sure knows how to comfort us in our pain and agony.... This brought so much delight and joy to me, just being able to taste of the kingdom of God here.

Shaken..

Thank God that the Lord was preparing me this morning that in my weakness, He is made strong. I am not sure if I can say like Paul in 2 Cor 12:10 that I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecution, in distress, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Die Again!

At my G12 mtg last evening, we shared about 'dying' again. Yes, again because this has been a topic that we have been sharing consistently about in the last 2 weeks. Guess the Lord was and is teaching us as a team to
D-I-E .. to ambitions, boasting, selfishness, having the last word, impatience, fear, unforgiveness, being judgemental etc.

It was great when we were all open to sharing our weaknesses and we were REAL! God revealed to us that we were looking at the speck in our brother's eye and did not see the log in our own. It was a good time of reflection and self-discovery!

Hmm, God has been speaking to me from Prov 30:8-9 that in the midst of the many things that are happening, my prayer is that God will remove falsehood and lies from me; Give me neither poverty nor riches - feed me with the food He prescribes for me, lest I be full and deny Him. And say, "Who is the Lord?" Or lest I be poor and steal, and profane the name of my God. Just allow me to be content with what I have so that I may be a blessing!

Die To Rights

I am learning to die to the right to be right! Sigh .. I have been encountering difficulty in many areas trying to relate and I am rather tired and worn out. It has been a rather tiring process although I kept reminding myself to be cheerful about the matter and be gracious and merciful.

The Lord reminded me through a prophecy from a Father Heart of God Conference I attended in April 2004 about the weapon that I was to use ....

"You are like a light bulb. You are like a joy giver. The Lord loves you very much and He is giving you the Gift of Laughter... something that you can share and spread. The Bible says that Laughter does good like a medicine and you are like a physician/ doctor and in His guidance, your laughter can bring healing where there's not healing and it can do warfare. Laughter is WARFARE! It's like it can fight a war and you might be called a laughter warrior - or the doctor of laughs. I see such joy in you and the Lord is very please with you. Even the struggles that you have, you get up everyday and go and share them. He will heal you as you heal others."

What comfort and assurance ...

Emo Week

Sigh .. like the kids would say, "I feel emo ...". That is a feeling of being emotional, touchy etc.

I felt so drained from an entire week of going through different emotions from anger to fear to betrayal to disappointment to sadness and even to compassion for many different ministry cases.

Guess the Lord is walking me through these times to bring me to another season of moulding and building in the area of my character and attitudes. I want to adopt what the Lord feels in these times ...

Like the song 'Hosanna' says .. (when my gals and I were rehearsing to be on stage this Sunday for the Choral. How exciting!)

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You
Have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for
Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

An Open Door??

God opened a wide door for me in KA today in a Childcare Centre and I felt rather overwhelmed at the extent of the invitation. It was basically to do Enrichment Programmes with the kids aged 4-6 years old. Wow! On 21 Aug, I was supposedly to prepare to meet 39 Centre Principals to present the package to them with a trial.

At the first instance when I heard that I had to do a presentation, I 'chickened' out. I was filled with much fear and I nearly wanted to back out and asked if there were other alternatives. Sigh, guess not! On hind side, the Lord gave me ideas and relevant insight with regards to connecting with them ... although I still feel uncertain and terribly lonely.

I had so many doubts in my mind that I felt lost and kept questioning ...

Firstly, why were there no other 'competitors' when there are so many vendors out there? Secondly, what did God see in us to grant us such favor with 39 centres? Thirdly, why do I have so little faith to believe that God has something good installed for us?

This caused me to realise that I have limitations but have forgotten to see that 'With God, All Things Are Possible'. Also, I was so concerned to see my own puny, frail, inferior, measly ways and have not overcome the fact that if God is for us, who can be against us? He is the One who opens doors that no man can shut and will shut doors that no one can open ....

I just finished reading a book entitled 'Marketplace Miracles' by Rick Heeren and I was reminded that God uses the ordinary things in our lives to turn it extraordinary. He wants to be our 'Partner' in the Business and wants us to 'pastor' the city through the works of our hands. Guess, I must be willing to submit myself fully to Him and allow Him to do what He wants with me, although very difficult. Just as we prayed together at our G12 meeting last Wed, I pray that we will seal the decision in our hearts that we will serve and love the Lord, no matter what!

Please keep me in your prayers as I seek the Lord and wait.

God Is Healer

Yesterday, I received an urgent call from Blind God-pa informing me that the Polyclinic doctor went personally to his house to tell him to wait no more and head for the clinic first thing in the morning as his blood test results were bad. Potassium high and it might affect his heart.

He was so worried and troubled. I prayed with him over the phone and I want to testify that God is faithful and true. Today, I met him at the clinic and they were ready to send him to CGH A & E for a thorough check-up. Praise the Lord ... all is well! At the hospital, they found that his blood pressure was normal and his potassium level was also normal. Hooray! Glory be to His wonderful name. God sure hears our prayers ...

A Thankful Heart - 1 Thes 5 :18

The Lord led me to meditate this verse through a song by Rick Riso from this Album 'As For My House' ..

A thankful heart
Creates a thankful home
Filled with love and understanding
So that grace can abound
A thankful heart will
Break down the walls of pride
Cause overcoming every problem
Begins with a thankful heart

Always rejoicing
And praying constantly
In every circumstance
We should give thanks
For this is the will of God
Concerning you and me
Only then can we discover
Joy and Liberty

Now binding the attitude
Of all dissatisfaction
Will only happen
When we're giving thanks
For His grace will meet us
And nothing can defeat us
When thanksgiving's offered
As a sacrifice of praise

It's time to let
Selfishness go
And allow the living water
To overflow

United in one purpose
We'll conquer the darkness
When the spirit of thanksgiving
Is shining in our souls

Overcoming every problem
It begins with a thankful heart

Whoopee Tent Experience

Had been busy at the official opening of T3 and a joint project with Times News Link doing Kooky Art activity these 2 days. Was thrilled to be connected back with the Peranakan culture. Hmm, what God does want to show us with our culture and roots?

Anyway, had wanted to blog my tent experience on Thur 24 July when Ps BC's 12 had an opportunity to set up tents in Bukit Merah to seek the Lord. It was quite an awesome feeling - like being back in the Prayer Mountain in the grottos in Korea.

Personally, it was such a whoopee experience because my heart was in such 'anticipation' mode that before I even entered the tent, my spirit was already high. The minute I stepped into the tent, I was literally weeping and wailing. God was bringing conviction to me about my heart condition and I was interceding much for one of my 12. I was praying for mercy and asking for a breakthrough with regards to a strained relationship.

To Blog Or Not To Blog

Hmm.. i sat in front of my laptop for a long time and was contemplating to blog or not to blog ... what shall I share this morning?

The Lord in the past few days has been downloading to me precious lessons about forgiveness, compassion, love - unconditional love to be specific, mercy, the tongue, truth .... Wow! I am so overwhelmed by these thoughts. Do not really know how to pen them down in words.

The way the Lord has been bringing me through different situations are just a little token of showing me His steadfast love.

A Covenant Keeping God

I was reading Gen 4 - 12 this morning and was meditating much on the aspect of God as a covenantal keeping God ...

MagicBox Was Superb!

If you have not watched 'The Magic Box', you must catch it! Thought it was an excellent world-class production. Was so proud of SP, in spite of all his aches and pains, he put up such a near perfect and thrilling performance.

It encourages us to strive to be all that God has intended for us - To fulfill God's purpose for creating each of us unique and special in order to reach our destiny!

Magixbox Tonite

Hey, we are catching Magixbox at the Esplanade this evening together with Grandma and Poopie! Lucky Poopie, got a free $80 ticket coz S could not make it! Happy boy!!

Bless SP with new strength, joy as he does the show. A new anointing with the media and the audience!

John 10

This morning, I was meditating upon this verse .. John 10:9 "I am the Door. If anyone enters in by Me, he shall be saved and shall go in and out and find pasture".

What does it mean to enter in by the Lord? To know His presence, to have His fullness, to embrace all He has for us, to enjoy fellowship with Him?? I am still asking the Lord for a greater revelation of His Word ....

What a comfort and joy to know that when we enter in in Jesus Name, we have the privilege to go in and out and find pasture ... What's pasture? Wholeness? Blessings? Provision? Abundance? Oh .....

God's Favor

Was awfully surprised that God granted the article to go on the front page of Recruit today!

Wow, I just sit and marvel at the way the Lord opens doors ... ALL GLORY BE TO GOD!

An sms came in this morning ... "Is this SP's anointing? At the start of Magixbox, while SP was featured in Life Section this week, God also allows you to be featured the same week. Coincidence?" Yes, it is SP's anointing ... (G12, what!) and No way that this is sheer coincidence - it's all about God and His goodness in our lives! Haha! We couldn't have orchestrated this better!

Check This Out!

Hey, being featured on a 1.5 page article in 'The New Paper' under Career Choice was a humbling honor, I felt. God grants us good exposure for a purpose, I suppose? The picture looked good but I was rather embarrassed ... camera shy! Haha ....

Bless Their Heart

Bless A's heart .... I had the honor of conducting a KA session for Downs Syndrome kids today at a workshop where there was a story-telling and a time for the kids to explore decorating cookies. It was such a joy to see the kids, parents and helpers enjoying themselves at MacDonald's.
God has been opening doors to me even in these areas of reaching out to special needs kids and He is doing something with my heart! The years of training that He has put me through in Handicap Services and Disabled work has not been wasted. Indeed God holds us in the palm of His hands and WE HAVE A DESTINY! We just have to walk with Him and allow ourselves to partner Him!

The testimony of this lady is amazing! Some 14 years ago, she found some flyer on the street and turned to her hubby to ask if they could adopt him. The flyer showed this Downs kid and he had been abandoned for 2 months and was in hospital. Her husband was at first reluctant, but the next day, he felt a deep compassion and went to drive all around the gas station to look for the flyer just to get connected. The rest is history ... they went through much just to adopt this little boy who is unable to fend for himself and is helpless. They love him just like their own. (In fact, they sacrificed not to have their own kids in order to take care of him .... what unconditional love!)

This testimony reminds me of Prov 31:8-9 ... Speak up for the people who have no voice, for the rights of all the down-and-outers. Speak out for justice! Stand up for the poor and destitute!

We can do likewise.

Love Covers A Multitude Of Sin

I shared with my ladies through sms this morning about what the Lord taught me from 1 John 4 : 7 - 8. Dear Friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

This is easier said that done. Today, I had a test of what it takes to love someone even though it is tremendously difficult and impossible. It was a painful and sad situation ... And the Lord reminded me that when we are able to love that someone and look beyond them, we know God. Yes, we know God because He is LOVE and that LOVE covers a multitude of sin no matter how we have been wronged or accused.

The Giant Is Faced ...

For those of you who have been praying, I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. God answers and hears prayers. Even just at the start of the 40 Days of Prayer and Fasting, I have already begun experiencing miracles and breakthroughs in my personal life. Yeah, I will continue to fast, pray and seek a greater manifested presence of God throughout these 40 days!

Indeed this is a Year Of Sabbath for me, where I am reaping more than double fold. This Scripture came back to me ... that I am going to reap what I have not sown.

Do you know, when I was on the verge of giving up my business, God broke through for me? I was at my wits end, fighting many fierce battles and had to surrender all my cares, woes and burdens to the Lord. I was seeking Him desperately about my journey as I needed guidance, wisdom and direction for the moment. At that point, I remembered the prophetic word released to me in Jan that I will continue to do KA, and I clung on! God really allowed His favor to come upon me quickly. I am eternally grateful.

I had such an affirmation from the Lord when I received this email from my KA boss and I broke down crying in my heart tonight. "... I trust you completely in running the operations for Kooky Art. You are doing a great job and as said many times, I really appreciate it." What a comfort and joy!

Thank you, Lord. You loving kindness endures forever...

Up Singapore Flyer

Oh, how grateful I am that we had an opportunity to go up the Singapore Flyer this morning together with the pastors of the city from Love Singapore. It was a glorious time of prayer, praise and worship!

Today also begins the start of the 40 Days Prayer & Fasting and the 12th Cycle that Love Singapore has launched this.... Personally, I am seeking the Lord for many issues and asking for a breakthrough.

Isa 58 ... I would like to cry aloud, spare not, lift my voice like a trumpet to God these 40 days. Also, I want to seek the Lord daily, delight to know God's ways and fast.

Yes, I want to see the bonds of wickedness loosen, undo heavy burdens, oppressed set free, breaking of every yoke .. to share bread with the hungry, bring the poor who are cast out and to cover the naked person.

Then, light shall break forth like the morning, healing shall spring forth speedily, righteousness shall go before me, the glory of the Lord shall be my rear guard, then i shall call and the Lord will answer .. i shall call and He will say, Here I am!

The Way Of Wisdom

I have been meditating much on Prov 9 .. about how to avoid foolishness and go in the way of understanding.

Sometimes, it is such a challenge that I feel that I am like a 'schizophrenic'...playing many roles and having to exercise wisdom and understanding in different scenarios.

Suppose the only way is like the wise man in vs 10 .. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.

Believe that this will drive us to know the character of the Father much better and have a deeper understanding of what He is like and thinks.....

Relieved Yet Again

Today I went to HDB for an interview with an officer and in a way, I was pleased to know that my application for the Home Loan Eligibility was not approved. Basically, I did not have sufficient supporting documents to apply.

Guess, this was a clear clear sign that the Lord has closed this door for me. I was praying before that and asking God for direction and guidance. Indeed He has proven Himself true again! Thanks, Lord! Phew, am I relieved! My heart feels very settled and very much at ease.

At least I know that this is not the time for this activity under the sun. It will give me 3 more months or more to sort out terms and conditions with KA in order to get substantial documentation for application in the near future.

Featuring Kooky Art

God has been so good to me .. that on many occasions, I can only sit and marvel at the way the Lord orchestrates my life. Just last week, I received an email from a writer who was looking for a party organiser to profile and and Yes, you guessed it! I will be featured in The New Paper and The Straits Times Recruit page quite soon.

We just had a simple interview and a photography session this afternoon. All praise goes to God ... pray that the article turns out well and that there will be many opportunities for me to testify of the Lord's goodness and mercy!

G12 Retreat

Hey, never in the history of my G12 have we had such an early morning retreat.

We met at 5.45 a.m. at the East Coast Parkway where we had an hour of personal time with the Lord and then corporate worship and sharing.

It was so wonderful to spend time interacting and pouring our hearts before the Lord and to each other.

We want to be hungry for God and all that matters to Him .... we want to live for eternity rather than for that which is temporal. We are committed to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness ... and all these things shall be added to us. If the souls of man and the Word of God is of utmost importance, we want to make it a priority to pursue after 'food' that will last. John 6:27.

We really should do this more often ... lol!

Burdens

The Lord has been laying heavy burdens on my heart recently. Guess they are all to be committed to Him in much prayer ...

1) The condition of our hearts with regards to kingdom matters ... how we are investing our time and money? Particularly, to the pressing needs around us ....

2) The attitudes and responses when we serve the Lord and be served by God's people. Leadership challenges ....

3) Mindsets and paradigms that needs to be shifted and changed if there are negative patterns rearing its ugly head. Thought patterns ....

Stand Alone

I was so busy conducting a 2-day Kooky Art Camp the last two days .... Fruitful but rather tiring.

God taught me many precious lessons during that time ... One was, when I brought one of my tuition kids for the camp. He is being home schooled and when he was exposed to the 'world', he manifested many characteristics or behaviours which were rather shocking ... He had to learn to stand alone and be different.

No wonder the Bible tells us that we have to be the LIGHT in this dark world or that 'We are to be in the World but NOT of it'.

Cottage Success

Thank you for praying .. felt like

the Lord granted success in this new 3D project of mine. Also, it's really a testimony of a God who is creative, innovative and ingenious and how He so wants to partner with us to glorify His name! Wow! Thank you, Lord!

Facing The Giant II

Guess what? I received a letter from HDB today that an appointment has been scheduled for me next week...they would like to re-evaluate my application during the appointment. Am praying that the Lord's will be done in this. He has good plans for me, I know!

The fact is, my heart feels very much at ease and peaceful. I know that every door that the Lord opens, no man can shut. But, if He closes the door, no matter how hard we try to force our way in, God's purpose and plan stays.

I want to learn to submit to His good and perfect will for my life!

Bridesmaid

Hey being a bridesmaid at my friend's wedding was tiring ... I am still recuperating after 3 days ... but it was fun!

Guess it's a once in a life time experience for me! Haha!

Count My Blessings

Last night before I went to bed, I realised that I was so blessed! I received 3 "edible" blessings in a day .... WOOOW!

1) C offered me home-made 'AChar', which is my favourite dish with fried fish. And her AChar is superb ... has lots of sesame seeds and nuts.

2) L offered me 3 home-made 'Bak-chang', which is grandma's favourite. It was really her labour of love which I appreciated.

3) And my dear A, brought a melon all the way to my doorstep . The melon was so delicious and juicy and my nephew and niece enjoyed it tremendously.

What a blessing of provision! God is such a wonderful God ... He sure knows what we need before we even utter a word. No wonder, Ps 139 says ... Before a word is on my tongue, You know it completely O Lord.

One Giant Down, One More To Go ...

Happy Birthday Poopietoo ... That's my adorable nephew! We had a wonderful family lunch together as we celebrated his birthday. My my, how time flies .... He turns 9 today! Still remembered cuddling and rocking him to sleep as a baby .... Boy, am i ageing? Sigh sigh ... Hee!

Hey you know what? I received a confirmation of a new salary adjustment from KA today. I am so happy because I know the Lord had allowed me to walk through this season of fear, intimidation & uncertainty just clinging on to Him and trusting that He is MY PROVIDER .. Here's a little glimpse of affirmation to share with you from my boss in HK ... "You are doing a great job and I definitely am of the view that I need to review your remuneration."

This has taught me a precious lesson. If we have a need, bring it first before the Lord and when the timing is right, bring it up also to higher and proper authorities with respect and honor ... you might just receive a token of blessing in return. Hee!

"Facing The Giants"

You know, we watched this movie at G12 meeting last night. It was inspiring and a timely reminder for me because many of us have 'giants' (of fear, insecurity etc) that we need to face up to boldly on a daily basis. The question is, do we dare to trust God that WITH HIM, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE or do we bury our heads in the ground, like the ostrich pretending that all is well or wallowing in self-pity?

I had to face 2 'big giants' today as I made very bold steps to rise up in faith. I prayed much about these two delicate situations and declared VICTORY! The first had to do with the loan application which I made to HDB. The second was about a new personal proposal that would emerge from KA. Both had to do with my future plans and the Lord reminded me that the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord. If we choose to keep doing right, walking in faith and seeking Him, He will direct our paths and make it straight.

Do you know, each time I see the Lord leading and guiding my every step, I feel so blessed that I want to cry out loud? All I can do is just praise the Lord and testify of His goodness again and again!

Boo hoo hoo ... Thank You, Jesus!

Loan Application

Today, I finally submitted the HDB loan application. Wonder if God will grant favor and success in this as I know it is my first step to sourcing for a unit?

I have heard 2 success stories recently about how the Lord led them to their specific needs.

May the Lord - Jehovah Jireh provide for me, just as He did for them!

Affirmation

I felt a great sense of affirmation today when Ps Eugene preached on a cutting-edge ministry and BEING a cutting-edge where ever we are... by FAITH.

Recently, I have been asking the Lord about the supernatural and about my call in the ministry and in the 'marketplace' where He has directed me to be so far. I have experienced many wonderful testimonies of favor, grace and provision. Incidentally, I am still trusting God to help me a) STEP OUT of my comfort zone, b)STAND OUT because God is faithful and keeps His word and c) SPEAK OUT to declare that God is righteous and He will save.

I am learning this precious lesson of the Blessing of Obedience.....

"For dreams to come true, you first need to wake up" .. this quote is so true. Many of us are living in our own comfy niches, afraid to move out and make a difference. May the Lord grant us His presence, boldness and courage to step out to transform lives as He directs.

Ps 139 - Memorised!

This is such a beautiful psalm to memorise especially when I have been rather physically exhausted and weary. The Lord ministered to me through this Psalm which I memorised... let me attempt...

You have searched me and You know me. You know when I sit and when I rise. You perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and lying down, You are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue, You know it completely, O Lord. You hem me in - behind and before. You have laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from Your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your Presence? If I go up to the heavens, You are there. If I make my bed in the depth, You are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle in the far side of the sea, even there You are with me, Your right hand holds me fast.

If I'd say, surely the darkness will hide me, the night will be light around me. Even the darkness is not dark to You, and the night will shine like the day, and darkness will be as light to You.

For You created me in my inmost being, You knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from You when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depth of the earth, Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in Your book, before one of them came to being.

How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God. How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count to, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with You.

If only You would slay the wicked; Away from me you blood thirsty men! They speak of You with evil intent, Your adversaries misuse Your name. Do I not hate those who hate You and abhor those who rise up against You? I have nothing but hatred for them, I count them my enemies.

Search me, O God and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is an offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.

Amen!

Die Of Exhaustion ...

Have you ever thought you will die from exhaustion? I did! The number of things which I rushed out back to back today nearly killed me!

From preparing for my party at home, to marketing, to decorating my cake for my evening party, to entertaining my friends, to cleaning the house, to conducting a kid's birthday party, to preparing for a school project tomorrow, to preparing my own dinner, to c-o-l-l-a-p-s-i-n-g ..... that's what I felt was going to happen to me.

In all of this, I can declare Ps 139 : 13 .. for you formed my inward parts. You have covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works and that my soul knows very well. You know, God knows how much I can bear ... and I have truly experienced the strength and the mercies of the Lord again and again!

Popiah Party

In celebration and honor of C, Aunty and B, I decided to have a popiah party at my place tomorrow for 'branch' - as in breakfast and lunch. Wow, it's sure a lot of work preparing for it! Thank God for my brother's helper, my dear mother and grandma for their loving, helping hands ....

On top of my busy KA schedules .... and sigh, today the silly cake shop supplied me a wrong cake in preparation for tomorrow's party. Had to make them do a special delivery tomorrow morning. Rush rush .....

But, I am happy to play host to my dear ladies and their families to 'honor' them. The Lord has been teaching me personal lessons about honoring our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ and serving them whenever there is an opportunity. I feel a great sense of awe when the Lord reveals these truths to me.

So, let's enjoy a time of feasting and celebrating the Lord - How pleased the Lord will be when brethren dwell together in unity! Ps 133

Exams Over

Phew! What a relief! I have been so busy with kids exams and I am relieved that they're all over. Results are out. Some did well while others did not. Sigh, guess those who did put in effort, benefitted!

As for me, I have been physically tired. Primarily because I have been working non-stop from morning to evening plus cell, church meetings
& Kookyart workshops and parties etc.

One good thing is that I have been spending time meditating on God's Word. Last evening, I completed half the passage on Ps 139. What a precious word for my soul during this time ... Indeed, O Lord, you have searched me and You know me. You know when I sit and when I rise, You perceive my thoughts from afar...

New Kid On The Block

After many months of prayer, I finally got my new kid on the block to join my G12. Thank God for the way He has allowed Bel to join us and the transition was so smooth. Unbelievable!! With God, all things are possible! Just believe!

We welcome her and we are looking forward to serving together with her in this new journey!

Welcome, Bel! Hope you have many wonderful days with us! We love and appreciate you!

And gals, I am so proud of each and every one of you .... we put in so much effort to memorise the chunks of Scripture together! Let's keep the Spirit up and keep allowing the WORD OF GOD to live through us. HOORAY!

Meditating Day & Nite

The next passage of Scripture that I just completed memorising is from Ps 119:9-16 . Hoho, let me attempt...

How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to Your word. I will seek You with all my heart, do not let me stray from Your commands. I have hidden Your word in my heart that I might not sin against You.

Praise be to You, O Lord, teach me Your decrees. With my lips, I will recount all the laws that come from Your mouth. I rejoice in following Your statutes, as one rejoices in great riches. I meditate on Your precepts and consider Your ways. I delight in Your decrees and I will not neglect Your word!

Our New Car

Was quite excited as I went with Mum to collect the new car today at Sin Ming... say Hi, if you see an olive green Toyota Vois SJE 5393M on the road.

God is good! He provides much for us, even in times of recession, inflation etc. In fact, the Bible in Ps 128 says .. Blessed are all who fear the Lord, who walk in His ways. You will eat the fruit of your labour; blessings and prosperity will be yours. Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your house; your sons will be like olive shoots around your table. Thus is the man blessed who fears the Lord ....

Memorise Scripture

I felt I wanted to take time to memorise Scripture and I thank God that I managed 2 chapters of Psalms last evening. Hoho ...

Ok, let me quote Ps 112 to you from memory ...

Praise the Lord. Blessed is the man who fears the Lord, who finds great delight in His commandants.

His children will be mighty in the land, the generation of the upright will be blessed. Wealth and riches are in his house, and his righteousness endures forever.

Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man. Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely.

Surely he will never be shaken, a righteous man will be remembered forever. He will have no fear of bad news. His heart is steadfast, trusting the Lord. His heart is secure, he will have no fear. In the end he will look in triumph on his foes.

He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor, his righteousness endures forever. His horn will be lifted high in honor.

The wicked man will see and be vexed. He will gnash his teeth and waste away. The longings of the wicked will come to nothing.

It is good to meditate on the Word of God - day and night!

I Lift Up My Eyes

Was trying to memorise Ps 121 ...

I lift up my eyes to the hills - where does my help come from? My help comes the Lord, the Maker of Heaven and Earth. He will not let your foot slip - He who watches over you will not slumber; indeed he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord watches over you - the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm - he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

I need help in many areas ... just got a new business offer from a dear friend ... WOW! I am so awed at the way the Lord opens up doors for me.

Bring An Offering Of Praise

At 3 am, the Lord reminded to make right a relationship. Although I know the person was upset with me, I was reminded to go make the first move before bringing my offering to the altar of the Lord. It was a humbling experience I thought the Lord had me do.

Well, I want to give thanks that I did make the initial call and praise be to God, the relationship was restored. The person even apologised for being nasty and rude and we were made right. No wonder the Bible tells us to be at peace with all men.

I was meditating much on Ps 119 last evening and the Word of the Lord can indeed bring restoration to our weary souls. How can I keep my ways pure? By taking heed according to God's word. I want to seek the Lord with all my heart and not wander from His commandments. I will choose to delight myself in His statues and not forget His word. Open my eyes that I may see wondrous things from Your Law... let me not be proud but be willing to surrender myself wholly to You.

The Blessed State Of The Righteous

It has been a week since I last blogged. Time flies ...

Ps 112 Blessed is the man who fears the Lord, who delights greatly in His commandments.

His descendants will be mighty on the earth, the generation of the upright will be blessed. Wealth and riches will be in his house, and his righteousness endures forever. Unto the upright there arises light in the darkness.

He is gracious, and full of compassion and righteous. A good man deals graciously and lends; He will guide his affairs with discretion; surely he will never be shaken. The righteous will be in everlasting remembrance. He will not be afraid of evil tidings; His heart will be steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is established; He will not be afraid, until he sees his desire upon his enemies...

I am learning to deal with a difficult situation with much discretion and prayer. Lives are fragile and it takes tenderness, kindness and love at all times to deal with it... God help!

Integrity

I learnt a valued lesson about integrity today. I discovered to my horror that my dear Autistic boy had been taking P1-P6 textbooks home from the Staff Resource Room without permission.

When confronted with the consequences of stealing, he began opening up and sharing with me his fears and his fleshly desires. I felt sorry for him because he had a keen spirit to learn and was desiring the resource books for his own reference. He felt deprived that because of his family's financial situation that mum would not buy the books for him, which in actual fact were not necessary. If given the proper guidance, he would not have taken this route of action.

Many of us struggle as well ... it may not come in the form of these reference books being stolen, even with good intentions to gain knowledge, but if carried out in a wrong approach would have detrimental consequences too. How then do we weigh integrity?

Integrity is the basing of one's actions on an internally consistent framework of principles. Depth of principles and adherence of each level to the next are key determining factors. One is said to have integrity to the extent that everything one does and believes is based on the same core set of values. While those values may change, it is their consistency with each other and with the person's actions that determine the person's integrity.

The concept of integrity is directly linked to responsibility in that implementation spawning from principles is designed with a specific outcome in mind. When the action fails to achieve the desired effect, a change of principles is indicated. Accountability is achieved when a faulty principle is identified and changed to produce a more useful action. The meaning of integrity is a steadfast adherence to a strict moral or ethical code. The state of being unimpaired; soundness. The quality or condition of being whole or undivided; completeness.

Did this boy have integrity, then? To be fair to him, he was forthright, sincere and straightforward. In fact, he was so single-minded and focused to obtain knowledge through the different books which he 'took'. He was even careful to select those books he did not own. He did not mean to steal or had no intentions to cause anyone harm but the very action demonstrated that he was not principled, was inconsistent in his value system, had no sense of responsibility nor accountability for his actions. And of course, he could not stick to strict moral or ethical codes of conduct without proper direction or guidance.

Babies Are Darlings!

Oh, how fun! I went to 2 baby showers today ... One was Bb Esther and the other Bb Ethan. How coincidental ... both E's.

Babies are so precious, no wonder Ps 103:14 says that God knows our frame and remembers that we are dust. As for man, his days are like grass; as a flower of the field, so he flourishes. For the wind passes over it, and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more.

What lasts for eternity? Only the souls of man and the Word of God. That will help us to prioritize and focus on doing more important things .... like googling with babies ... hee hee! They are such sweetie pies.

Bless The Lord, O My Soul

I am trying to memorize Ps 103 because I know the importance of keeping the Word of God in our hearts. I remembered a camp in our youth days when they simulated a 'torture boot camp' where we did not have food and water and also no Bibles. That was a good reminder that we needed to keep God's Word alive and in memory. Sounds like those tortured in China because of the Gospel of Christ.

Well, you never know ... in the last days when we walk through martyrdom for the sake of the Call, we need to hide His Word in our heart. Good to put that into practice now!!

Happy Birthday God-pa

Here's wishing my blind godpa a Blessed and Wonderful Day! That he will have many good years to sing of God's mercy and justice. Ps 101... that he will continue to walk wise in the House of God with a perfect heart.

Lord, thank you for your promises to me that Your EYES are on the faithful in the land, that we may dwell with you and walk in a perfect way and serve YOU.

Psalm 100

Hundredth days seem rather significant... As I blog on the 100th Psalm as we corporately read it together, it is about making deliberate choices to make a JOYFUL shout to the Lord, to serve Him with all gladness, to come before His presence with singing. Yeah, deliberate because there are many occasions when we do not even feel like praising, giving thanks or even serving.

Talking about serving, I was recently counseling someone in the area of serving the Lord because the Lord checks our heart and attitudes. We need to have INTEGRITY of HEART amongst each other, even more so when we are alone. Vs 3 We need to know that the Lord is God. It is He who made us and not we ourselves. We are His people and the sheep of His pasture ... Baah Baah Baah....

Let's enter His gates with thanksgiving and into His courts with praise. Be thankful to Him and bless His name. For the Lord is good and His mercy is everlasting and His truth endures to all generations.

Thankful For Gals

My heart felt so uplifted today after meeting with C, M and B together with her husband. God is doing so much in our midst in transforming our lives bit by bit that my heart was literally leaping with gratefulness and joy. No words could express the deep sense of gratitude that I have towards the Lord. No wonder, the Bible is true ... whatever you sow, you will reap! I felt that I was reaping a portion of what I have sown into the lives of my gals in the last few years.

I am beginning to see many of my leaders rising up to take on new challenges and responsibilities. Also, together, we are closing ranks and working shoulder to shoulder to serve the Lord. God is breaking down invisible walls and barriers so that the unity of the Spirit will be felt across the Body of Christ.

We had a chance to plan together today and review our Cluster Cells and we were looking forward to new strategies and goals that the Lord would have us launch into nearing the 3rd quarter of the year. It was exciting to see how our hearts were knit together as we brain-stormed and talked through different combinations of groupings and how I felt the real connectedness with each of them.

It was encouraging especially to see M & C coming alongside me to volunteer to head-up the new clusters that we would be going into and also the willingness to kick-start new projects in the near future too. I felt that God has done such a deep work of healing and restoration in our lives to bring us to such a level of commitment to God and to each other. We were so keen to see each other succeed.

In the next few months, pray along with me as I reveal the 'blueprints' of our plans to each individual of my network. I want to hear them out and share my heart with them. I am also going to give each of them a personal challenge to grow in the area of INTEGRITY ... will share more in the coming weeks.

Looks like there is much work to be done .... Keep up the good spirit!

Visited G's mum at Mount E too. She was weak and in much pain. Poor Aunty ... She was thankful that she could just stomach bean curd to sooth the ulcers in the bleeding tummy. Oh, how we take for granted food we eat and the good health we enjoy! Lord, bring complete healing and restoration to her agony. Amen.

Tension At Home

Last night, there was a little tension at home and I was reminded of Pastor's prophecy to me in Jan about a crisis in our home.

The Lord says, I want you to learn through the family crisis and speak to that mountain and see the mountain be removed and dissolve right before your eyes. And you will see triumph and the victory of the Lord.
The Lord says .. This year, as you see the family situation, do not fear or worry, I am in control of the family situation and God will use the family situation to bring the family even closer to Him and united around the faith.

What a gentle God we have who is constantly assuring us of His presence, patience and love....

Lost $200

Due to my own carelessness, I dropped two hundred dollars near the Library ... which means I will be $200 poorer this month. Sigh sigh sigh ...... Bless the person who picked it up!

Days Of Adversity

What a promise I had when I awoke this morning from Ps 94 ... especially when I was suffering bone ache and nose block last night. Think I caught a flu bug ... Sigh.

God who planted our ear, He will hear; He who formed our eye, He shall see. He is the God who chastens or disciplines because He instructs nations and teaches knowledge... wow, a revelation here ... God is KNOWLEDGE! God knows the thoughts of man, that they are futile and vain.

Blessed is the man whom You instruct, O Lord, and teach out of Your Law that you give Him rest from the days of adversity. Yes, I want to be instructed from God's word so that I can be free from pain and unnecessary agony .. For the Lord will not cast off His people, nor will He forsake His inheritance. Yes, I am His treasure and He will not neglect nor forsake me.

If my foot slips, God's mercy will hold me up. In the multitudes of my anxieties within me, His comfort delights my soul. What a beautiful picture of God's embrace and love! Yeah, in fact, there are many anxieties within me recently but I have been experiencing the comfort and delight of God's assurance and fellowship.

The Lord has been my Defense and my God the Rock of my Refuge. Yes, keep my safe in the Rock of All Ages and protect my dignity and my soul from wickedness and shame.

A Psalm, Song For Sabbath

Wow ... I was enjoying Ps 91 & 92 much and was taking time to pray through some matters using these 2 chapters ....

Ps 91 .. He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. He is My Refuge and My Fortress, My God in whom I trust! God will deliver me from the snare of the trapper and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover me with His pinions, and under His wings I will seek refuge. I will not be afraid of the terror of night or the arrow that flies by day; or the pestilence that stalks in darkness; or the destruction that lays waste at noon...No evil will befall me, nor will any plague come near my tent. For God will give His angels charge concerning me to guard me in all my ways. They will bear me up in their hands that I will not strike my foot against a stone... I will call upon God and He will answer me, He will be with me in trouble; He will rescue me and honor me. With long life will I be satisfied and see His Salvation.

Ps 92 .. It is good to give thanks to the Lord and to declare His lovingkindness in the morning. Yes! A brand new morning... And His faithfulness by night. For You, O Lord, have made me glad by what You have done. I will sing for joy at the works of Your hands. How great are your works, O Lord! Your thoughts are very deep ... cheem ah! The righteous man will flourish like the palm tree, He will grow ... Planted in the house of the Lord, they will flourish in the courts of our God. They will still yield fruit in old age (Phew!! What a comfort!). They shall be full of sap and very green, (Beautiful? Gorgeous? Attractive? Haha!) to declare that the Lord is upright. He is My Rock and there is no unrighteousness in Him! Amen & Amen ....

Unwell ...

I missed Church today (rare occasion ...) as I was feeling unwell and dizzzyyy... sigh. Must have been overworked and too exhausted.

Thank God I had a time to rest and also to rest in God's presence .... It is much needed, doing my QT in bed.

Prayer For Help

I realised that the Lord has been setting a pattern of prayer for me. I have been waking early in the morning to read and to pray... allowing my prayer to rise up to Jesus. Also, allowing a spirit of thanksgiving and praise to arise.

Let my prayer come before You, incline Your ear to my cry. For my soul is full of troubles ...Lord I have called daily upon You. I have stretched out my hands to You. Will You work wonders for the dead? Shall the dead arise and praise You? Shall Your loving kindness be declared in the grave? Or Your faithfulness in the place of destruction? Shall Your wonders be made known in the dark? And Your righteousness in the land of the forgetfulness? PS 89

But You O Lord, I have cried out, And in the morning my prayer comes before You. Why do you cast off my soul? Why do You hide Your face from me? I have been afflicted and ready to die from my youth up; I suffer Your terrors; I am distraught...

Stand Fast In The Faith

The Lord has been reminding me to Watch, Stand Fast in the Faith, be Brave and be Strong. Let all that I do be done with LOVE ... 1 Cor 16:13-14 ....

It is a timely reminder as I walk many uncertain 'roads' in my life ....

Encountering God

I had such an encounter with the Lord last evening. Do you know that if we silence ourselves in His presence, we will hear Him speak?

That's what I did last evening and I was so broken before the Lord. He began to show me the condition of my heart - the deception, the meanness, the unkind thoughts and actions etc. I was in bed weeping and sobbing till I felt the Lord forgave me.

At the end of my time with the Lord, He reminded me that just the week past when we celebrated Good Friday and Easter, He died for all my sins and He loves unconditionally. I was filled with remorse and wished that I had repented much earlier. I decided in my heart to turn over and allowed the Word of God to fill my heart again. I read Ps 86 and realised that I am indeed poor and needy. I cried to ask the Lord to save me and have mercy on me. Vs 5 - You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive and abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You.

I ended my time with a prayer to the Lord to teach me His ways and to walk in His truth. His ways are loving and kind. Unite my heart to fear Your name and I will praise You.

Righteousness Will Prevail

Yes, the Lord will give what is good; and our land will yield its increase. Righteousness will go before Him, and shall make His footsteps our pathway. Ps 85 ...

Me was up at 5.30 a.m. because the Lord laid a heavy burden on my heart. Was in much prayer to believe that He who began a good work in my life will be faithful to bring it to completion.

Indeed, I want to claim and believe that NO good thing will be withhold from those who walk uprightly. Felt oppressed on many sides ... and yet have to stand strong. Sigh.

My Heart & My Flesh Cry Out

My heart is crying out to God for many things ... Ps 84 depicts that condition of my heart...

1) To make a clear stand about convictions of the Lord regarding discipline.
2) Defining God's destiny and plan for my life as I walk in obedience and submission.
3) To dare to walk in the unknown knowing that God is ahead of me.

For a day in God's court is better than a thousand. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness. For the Lord God is a Sun and a Shield. The Lord will give grace and glory; No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly.

O Lord of hosts, Blessed is the man who trusts in You!

Kids Will Be Kids ....

I was rather upset by the way some parents failed to discipline their kids and teach them the ways of God in Church today.

I wonder why they allow their kids to be noisy at church services when we should be teaching them a reverence and awe of God from young. Also, why do they not teach their kids that it is rude to eat other people's food without permission ... no table manners? Also, do we allow kids to jump in the car from the front to back without being belted? Sigh ....

In the recent days, God has been teaching me much about the Father's heart. What do you think of all these matters, God? Does it grieve you when your children live in such insecurity and self-centeredness and do not train their kids in the instruction and fear of the Lord? How then we do we say that kids are a gift from God when we do not take time to discipline them and nurture them to be more and more like Christ? How can they then be like sharpened arrows being shot out from the quiver .... ?

Marriages

SP shared a sober message about Husbands needing to take the lead and responsibility in the home last evening at the Sanctification Weekend meeting ... Husbands must affirm and love her in order to invoke the beauty of his wife as said in Eph 5:23.

The Lord has been speaking much to me in my times of devotion about marriages and what we need to teach our ladies that should be responses to submitting to our husbands.

Leaving the 'man' part of deal to them, I would like to share what the Lord has been speaking to me about how the women should respond and react. As wives, the Lord told me that wives need to make their man feel needed. They are our "heroes" and we need to make them feel assured and secure that they belong. Ladies need to assure their man that they want their covering, protection, leadership, assurance and love. Our women must also learn to submit themselves to being encouraging and affirming their husbands not just with their words but also with actions. They must learn to satisfy their husbands as unto the Lord.

It seems queer for me to share this thought being a single, but I believe the Word of God has much to teach us about these areas because He is committed to building strong families in our churches as well as nation. God is allowing us a glimpse of His heart and His intentions for His dear children as we disciple them to have a heart after God's own.

Good Friday Thots ...

Recently, the Lord has been giving many warnings from our daily devotion about being stubborn, stiff-necked, proud, haughty etc... Ps 81 also is a warning to Israel against worship to foreign gods and those who do not heed the voice of God ... and there is a consequence when we disobey God. He will give us over to our stubborn hearts and walk in our own counsel.

God forbid that we should take this course of action to walk in our ways and ignore the sweet presence and fellowship of the Holy Spirit.... He is longing for more and more of us. Our intimacy, our devotion, our honour so that we will bring Him much delight and joy!

Let's keep pressing in to seek the face of God rather than just His hand of blessing, success and reward. When we learn to honour the Lord .. Matt 10:40, He will know how to honour and reward us in return. He is a God of His Word. His Word will not return to Him void.

You know, I have been deeply grieved when I see much self-centredness, greed and lust of the flesh from some around me... I wish we could still our hearts together and begin to allow the Lord to speak and reveal His broken heart to us this Good Friday. He really misses us .... He wants to have all of us, He is a jealous God who is waiting to sup with us and draw near to us. He wants to come and heal us and make us whole, He wants to mend broken marriages and bring deeper intimacy and love, He wants to demonstrate signs and wonders among us .... all because He is God!

May we take time to reflect and ponder on the goodness of God and give all glory, honour and our heart-felt devotion to Him. Glory be to His Glorious Name!!

Restore Us, Revive Us!

Tonight is Sanctification night! Let's prepare our hearts to encounter the Lord and allow Him to heal us, bring wholeness to our spirit and also allow His manifested presence in our lives to transform us.

Was reading Ps 80 this morning, and this verse repeated itself 3 times. Must be something important for us to note ... 'Restore us, revive us, make your face to shine and we shall be saved'.

When I look at God and all that He is doing in my life and around me, I can't help but feel restored and revived! The goodness of God is flowing and indeed He is making His face shine upon us as we are saved. The kind of challenges and ministry cases seem to mount, but God is allowing me to see that He is in control and that Kingdom work belongs to Him.

Sad News ...

I just heard a piece of very sad news from a friend. My ex-cell member, who was in my cell for a good number of years, went with us to Malacca, invited me to do her house blessing recently when she moved to a new place and who just retired as a school teacher has just passed away. She had 4th stage of colon cancer.

I am sadden & grief-stricken when I reflect about her life .... what have we done in our short time on earth that was impactful and meaningful? Have we committed ourselves to complete devotion and service to God and His people while we still have breath? Have we submitted ourselves to honor leadership - civil leaders, social leaders, domestic leaders or even church leaders? Do we harbour offences and unforgiveness?

In fact, I am reading a book by John Bevere entitled 'Honor' Reward'. It is timely and yet scary because how we value, respect and treat others determines our rewards ... It teaches us how to extend honor to our Creator, family members, authorities and those who fill our world. Do we want a full reward, a partial reward or No reward at the end of our life?

Make my life count for You, Jesus!

A Heart Of Integrity

Ps 78 vs 70 Why did God choose David, His servant and took him out of the sheepfolds .. to shepherd Jacob, His people & Israel, His inheritance? He had a heart after the Lord and ... like vs 72, He shepherded them according to the integrity of his heart, and guided them with his skillful hands?

Many times we cannot understand the way the Lord selects us. But I would like to think that while we are willing and are able to serve the Lord while we can, we ought to be faithful and excel in all that God has purposed for us in this lifetime.

Was reading an article and it is good food for thought ... strangely, I was kept awake a long time last night and was conversing with the Lord over an obedience-based decision. First draft only ... more to go .... sigh.

There are two types of people in the world. There are those whose activities are designed to generate a reward in this lifetime. And there are those who live to generate a reward when they meet our Lord in Heaven.

Not every Christian models the latter. How does one judge whether they are living for the future reward versus the earthly reward? There are several key indicators.

Future reward people tend to be givers. They make their time and resources available to be channeled for Kingdom purposes. They realize their sowing will ultimately be rewarded at the Judgment Seat of Christ where what they have done on earth will be judged and rewarded by God (2 Corinthians 5:10).

Future reward people live a life based upon obedience-based decisions. They don't make decisions based on their perceived outcome. They realize a decision based on obedience alone may not result in an immediate outcome. Jesus was obedient to the cross, but the immediate outcome was His own death on the cross.

Future reward situations show up in daily life in a number of ways. Perhaps a person has wronged you and God calls you to forgive and even bless that person without expectation of their response. Perhaps God calls you to sow money into a ministry or another person's life without expectation of return from them. Perhaps you are called to serve another person without expectation of any earthly reward. The situations we might encounter are unlimited.

Are you living a life based on a future reward, or short term reward? Today, evaluate how you make decisions and how you allocate resources. This will reveal whether you are a future reward Christian.

Rushy Rushy ...

It has been and will be mad rush for me today ... went to the gym, came back to prepare for KA workshop this afternoon, tuition in the late evening and attending a friend's dad' wake in the night.

Some kind of Sabbath?? Sigh ... Guess I am learning to find rest in the midst of strezzzz....

God help!

Oh Man!

I hardly slept a wink last night as I felt the Lord was holding my eyelids open, my soul refused to be comforted and I was too 'troubled' to speak. ... Sounds like Ps 77 ....

But I called to rememberance my song in the night and meditated within my heart, my spirit was diligently searching for God ... where are you, God? Where????

Little Baby Esther Is Finally Out!

Hey, bb Esther is finally out! We are rejoicing together with E & A. Thank God for the short, safe and smooth delivery.

Do Not Be Proud

Ps 75 is a gentle reminder for us to remain humble and meek. L and I were having a conversation recently and we were commenting that it is not easy to remain meek and gentle. Meekness requires God to bring us to a place of brokenness and being contrite in His presence.

No wonder, vs 5 can be sung ... Do not life up your horn on high, do not speak with a stiff neck..... God is the Judge. Vs 10 ... the horns of the righteous shall be exalted.

Can we encourage each other to be humble, gentle and meek? Are we willing to associate ourselves with those who are in pain, hurting or even those in agony? Can we have compassion on those who are weaker than us and be patient, constantly exercising the fear and the love of Jesus? Are we able to demonstrate Christ in tangible ways so that Christ be made known? Do we personally allow the Lord to heal our rejection, wounds and learn to find acceptance & significance in HIM?

Into Your Sanctuary

Ps 74 I am reminded that God is the God of summer and winter...especially with the unpredictable weather these days. He has set all borders of the earth. The day is His and the night is also His. He has prepared the light and the sun. We really cannot thwart the plans of God. There is indeed a time for everything under heaven and earth ... God governs and rules with righteousness. Let's just do what pleases the heart of God and His people.

Yes, I just want to come and dwell much in His presence .... enjoying His covering and security.

Sin & Its Consequences

Ps 73 vs 21 .. Thus my heart was grieved, and I was vexed in my mind ... I had such a gruesome dream last night but I trust the Lord had a message for me. When I tumbled out of bed, I was suddenly drawn to the severity of sin in our lives and what consequences it has when we hurt, offend and provoke the wrath of an Upright, Holy, Flawless and Virtuous God.

It must have grieved and caused God's heart to bleed when we do not recognise our folly and continue to sin and walk in plain rebellion and defiance. Until I went into the sanctuary of God, then I understood their end ... sigh.

Am still processing Ps 73 .. Whom have I in Heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Blessed Be His Glorious Name

These few days have been raining cats and dogs ... and it has been cold & miserable for many. But I seem to enjoy the rain and the cold. God has been good and I am learning to bless His name inspite of ..............

I am learning to rest and find God in the midst of different weather conditions and I guess, it is the same with our lives ... In the different facets of life, we are learning to find God and see Him in every situation. He is loving, kind and gracious and there is much to praise Him for.

Ps 72?

My Trust From Youth

Do you know that God has been my strong refuge and trust since I was 12? I want to determine in my heart that God will help me to be strong the next lap. Not just physical strength but spiritual stamina and energy to love and serve Him till the day I die.

May Ps 71 be the cry of my heart that God delivers me from the hand of the wicked, out of the hand of the unrighteous and cruel man. May the Lord be my hope as He has been from my youth; He has upheld me from birth and He is the One who took me out from my mother's womb, my praise shall continually be Him.

Lord, may you never cast me off in old age and not forsake me when strength fails, even when my enemies are out to get me. You have taught me from my youth to declare Your wondrous works... You shall increase my greatness and comfort me on every side. Wow! I am so awed by God's love for me ....

Poor & Needy

Ps 70 is a prayer from relief from adversaries and I made a prayer while in the shower this morning for the Lord to deliver me from any stronghold, bondages and even sickness. I have been having dizzy spells these few days and was feeling unwell.... sigh.

Make haste O God to deliver me! Make haste to help me, O Lord.

Let those who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; and let those who love Your salvation say continually, Let God be magnified!

But I am poor & needy; Make haste to me, O God! You are my help and my deliverer. O Lord do not delay.

Kids

Today was meaningful as we spent an hour praying through Ps 63 together as a congregation. It's not often that we pray as a Body to lay hold of God together. It was quite awesome to see the whole entire Hall 10 filled to the brim. Can you imagine when we praise the Lord together and worship Him in Heaven? That would be a beautiful sight!

We visited Uncle in hospital after service and sad to say, he lost his little last right toe to Diabetes. But his spirit was good so we were not so discouraged. Poor man, he has been fighting this battle for almost 3 months. Hopefully he will be discharged soon.

After the hospital visit, the 4 of us had yummy waffle & ice cream at Gelare in Siglap. It was a good time of chatting about our 2nd half in life, the kids in our midst and especially, how kids in our day and age should be disciplined and brought up in the fear and authority of the Lord.

More than just being concerned for the children, my heart has been crying out that the Lord will speak to the parents in order to teach and instruct their kids God-ward. In many scenarios, we really cannot blame the children for being ill-disciplined or even rebellious. The parents have not taught and modeled for them or have not been good examples for them to follow. Having said that, is there a place where the community can come in to speak into the lives of the parents or children? Is that where God wants us to influence and keep our own families in tact before we can go out to make an impact in the world? My heart is deeply grieved .... sigh.

My Humble Abode

Strange, I was woken at 1.26 am this morning and I believe it was the Lord who woke me up because the Lord gave me an answer which I was asking Him recently. Why do I need to get a place for myself? No reason at this moment to move out or even spend extra cash etc.. Then I heard a still small voice whisper to me that my humble abode will be used to house the fatherless and those who are needy.

I decided to get my PDA and I turned to Ps 68 and was utterly shocked that the Lord indeed had a specific word for me to partner with Him. Vs 5 ... A Father of the fatherless, a defender of widows, God sets the lonely in families or gives them housing, He brings those who are bound by chains into prosperity .... And I knew in my spirit that my question was answered!

Blessed is the Lord who daily bears my burdens....

Cause Your Face To Shine On Us

God, be merciful to me and bless me, and cause Your face to shine upon me, that Your way may be known on earth, Your salvation among the nations.

Ps 67 Let the peoples praise You and let the nations be glad and sing for joy! For You shall judge the people righteously and govern the nations on earth.

Let the peoples praise You. Then the earth shall yield her increase; God, our own God shall bless us. God shall bless us, and all the ends of the earth shall fear Him.

Would like to encourage us, in this season, to take time to seek the Lord and wait for Him. He misses us and longs to be with us. We do not want to run after worldly possessions and things that do not last for eternity. Let us guard our hearts and come before the Lord in true repentance.

Miracles Can Happen

Do you believe in miracles? I do! And they can happen .... Ps 66 tells us to 'Come and see the works of God. He is awesome in His doing towards the sons of men.' He can turn the sea into dry land ....

Our response to Him would be go into God's house with burnt offerings; fear God and declare what He has done for our souls. If I regard iniquity in my heart, God will not hear. Blessed be God who has not turned away my prayer, nor His mercy from me.

God Is God

Ps 65 God who established the mountains by His strength, is clothed in power, stills the noises of the seas & waves and the tumults of the people... You visit the earth and water it, You enrich it, river of God is full of water, You provide for their grain... and bless its growth. Wow! You are a God worthy of praise because You are God!

I receive that as we enter into a Year of Sabbath, vs 11, The Lord crowns us with a year of His Goodness and our paths drip with abundance... The pastures are clothed with flocks, the valleys are covered with grain; we will SHOUT for JOY, and sing. Thank You Lord for Your provision and abundance.

Complaint?

I was up at 3 am chatting and complaining to the Lord about many things. Guess I'm discovering that mid-nights are wonderful times to think and pray.

Ps 64 was David's plight when he was oppressed by the wicked and yet he was rejoicing in the Lord.

I would like to learn and do the same ... Hear my voice, O God, in my meditation. Preserve my life from fear of the enemy. Hide me from the secret counsel of the wicked, from the insurrection of the workers of iniquity, who sharpen their tongue like a sword, and bend their bows to shoot their arrows - bitter words.

... Let's not wait till God shoots at us with an arrow before we respond to Him. We will suddenly be wounded, He will make us stumble over our own tongue.

Hey, just went with mum to order a new Toyota Vios. Was a good buy. Worth every cent! Thank God for His kind provision.

Joy in Fellowship With God

When David was in the wilderness of Judah, this was his heart's cry ...Oh God, You are my God; Early will I seek the Lord, when my soul is thirsty and my flesh longs for You.

O what a joy that we could do likewise to earnestly seek the Lord and long for His sweet sweet presence, in a dry and thirsty land where there is no water.

His loving kindness is better than life, my lips will praise You. This I will bless you while I live, I will lift up my hands in Your name. My soul will be satisfied as with marrow and fatness, and my mouth will praise You with joyful lips.

When I remembered the Lord in the night watches on my bed, I meditated on Him... because He has been my help, therefore in the shadow of His wings I can rejoice. My soul follows close behind Him and His right hand upholds me.

Those who seek my life, to destroy it shall go to the lower parts of the earth. They shall fall by the sword; they shall be a portion for jackals .... eeks!

Wait In Silence For God

When there are many things and people screaming for our attention, I am grateful for God's reminder from Ps 61 to wait in silence for His redemption.

I can again declare that God is my ROCK and my SALVATION. He is my defense and I shall not be greatly moved. My soul, like David, desires to wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him.

Trust in Him at all times, pour out your heart before Him, do not trust in oppression, not vainly hope in robbery. If riches increase, do not set your heart on them. Power belongs to God. Mercy belongs to God.

For you will render to each one according to his work. In order words, you recompensate us according to the cleanness of our hands. Thank you that You are a just God who indeed is our pay-master, not our earthly employers. What a comfort!

Lead Me To The Rock Higher Than I

I felt 'exploited' by responses from KA and felt pressurized to fulfill many unspoken expectations which really troubled me.

I cried out to God at 4 a.m. this morning and was claiming Ps 61 that God would hear my cry and attend to my prayer. In my sleepy state, I remembered telling the Lord that when my heart becomes faint, He would lead me to the ROCK that is higher than I ... this Rock is Jesus who is unchanging, all-knowing and is in control of every situation. He is my strong shelter and tower from the enemy. I can hide under the shadow of His powerful wings.

Vs 5, even in my 'exploited' state, the Lord promises an inheritance for me when I choose to fear His name. If He can prolong the life of the King, He will definitely do likewise for us ... and grant us success to see many generations fearing the Lord.

Even in my distressed state, I can still sing praise to God's name forever.

One Hour In Prayer

Hey, I woke up at 7ish and was able to prayer an hour in bed. Zzzz...

1) Praise & Worship God - I used Ps 60 to praise and pray that through our God, we shall be valiantly, it is He who shall tread down our enemies and be triumphant.

2) Pray for myself - Asked the Lord to search my heart to check fault lines and cracks especially in the area of attitudes, judgemental-ism etc. My work, my emotions, God's purpose that will be fulfilled in my life.

3) Pray for my family - Was asking for the strengthening of my brother's marriage and protection over his family. Prayed for each of my spiritual daughters.

4) Pray for my workplace - Blessed the kids as they have CA today and also for KA - only God-given deals to come.

5) Pray for Singapore - Leadership will be God-fearing.

6) Pray for Nations - ?