Prayer & Repentance

21 May

Read Joel 1-3 today as the Lord reminded me of SP’s message on ‘Brokenness’…There is a serious need for us, as ministers and priest, to gird ourselves, lament and wail before the altar of our God for our people and for the many situations around us. The Lord wants us to consecrate a fast, call a sacred assembly, gather our people and all the inhabitants of the land into the House of God … to CRY out to the Lord.

For the day of the Lord is coming and it is at hand – a day of darkness and gloom, a day of dark clouds and thick darkness .. it is great and terrible! Who can endure it? Therefore, the Lord is calling us to TURN TO HIM with ALL OUR HEARTS, with fasting, weeping, mourning, rending our hearts and not our garments. Return to Him for He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger and of great kindness and He relents from doing harm.

WHO KNOWS if He will turn and relent and leave a blessing behind Him – a grain offering for the Lord your God? Therefore, I must pray!! I never know when the Lord will turn around and hear my prayers.

And the Lord assured me that He will restore to me the years that the locust has eaten, the crawling locust, the consuming locust, the chewing locust – I shall eat in plenty and be satisfied and praise the NAME OF THE LORD, MY GOD .. and I shall never be put to shame.

 

God's Love To Me - Encounter

20 May

God did a very deep work in my heart at this weekend encounter… Although I thought I came to minister and support my gals who had signed up for the encounter (Haha! I thought wrong!), God had a better idea and thought otherwise. He was so gentle and sweet in dealing with me. At a hugging session this morning, the Lord allowed a spirit of reconciliation to come upon me. God's timing could not have been better because the sister actually waited to hug me so that we could be reconciled. There had been unspoken tension in the last few months because of the different transitions. I thank God that He loves us and delights to see us love each other. John 13:34 "Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another. We had a chance to demonstrate this love in a tangible way today! All glory to God!!  I am very grateful and I felt that the Lord used this opportunity to bring a new level of healing to my heart. Thank you, dear Dolo – You demonstrated Jesus to me!!

We need to use up our hearts in order that we can get God's heart … says Jackie Pullinger. This was a great reminder for me as I felt I used up my heart at this encounter in order that God could replenish me or top me up. And He did – more than I could ask or imagine! He filled me to overflowing … so that I could give again! ☺☺

I sensed a new breakthrough in my network. I know that He is a VICTORIOUS God who will lead us in triumph as we dare to entrust our lives to Him! We are going to devote ourselves to loving and serving Jesus!!

 

 

Encounter

19 May

I was very happy today when I was at the 2^nd day of our BC Encounter because the Lord began his good work in the lives of my gals, especially my 144. I knew that when we have prepared our people well for the encounter, there is such a BIG difference because their hearts are so ready to receive from the Lord. Indeed the Lord has set them apart like in Acts 17:26 … He has made from one blood every nation of men to dwell on all the face of the earth, and has determined their preappointed times and the boundaries of their habitation… so that they should seek the Lord, in hope that they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of them. For in Him, they live and move and have their being… I am continuing to claim that further and deeper breakthrough for them. God loves them and has a wonderful plan for their lives. Amen!

 

Psalm 24

17 May

Read Psalm 24 today and was reminded about who may come and ascend in the hill of the Lord …. Especially when I had to prepare to lead worship tonight at the encounter. It was a good heart preparation for me as the Lord reminded me that he who has clean hands and a pure heart, one who does not lifted up his soul to an idol, nor swear deceitfully will receive a blessing from the Lord and righteousness from the God of His salvation. I would like to be the generation that seeks after the face and the heart of the Lord. 

‘Lift up your heads O you gates! And be lifted up, you everlasting doors. And the King of Glory shall come in. Who is this King of Glory? The Lord strong and mighty. The Lord mighty in battle. The Lord of Hosts – He is the King of Glory!’

 

The Fear Of The Lord

16 May

Read Proverbs 9 and the Lord was allowing me to meditate on vs 10 about the fear of the Lord being the beginning of wisdom and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.

The Lord has been giving me the experience of Joseph in the dungeon at my workplace recently and there were many occasions when I felt like I was ‘doomed’ for failure. Men can set us up for failure but God can and will turn every situation for our good! Thank God!! Prov 9 was such a good reminder for me that when I choose to fear the Lord, He would give me wisdom to handle situations that are really beyond me. Also, when I have a deeper knowledge of Jesus, the Son of the Living God, I will have understanding from His perspective and have the faith to believe that God is indeed for me, He is not against me!

I want to be like what vs 9 says, “Teach a just man, and he will increase in learning.” I want to be a willing warrior, teachable and pliable for God’s use.

Like I shared at the BC Cluster meeting tonight, may the Lord use us to T.O.U.C.H lives and be a blessing as we learn to cultivate faithfulness in reaching and pouring our lives to even ONE person … we are going to see the multitudes come through them!

T – ransforming

O – thers

U – nder

C – hrist’

H – and

 

 

Trusting God

15 May

Yesterday, the Lord led me to read the whole of Proverbs 3 and I meditated on vs 4-6 about trusting the Lord with all my heart and leaning not on my own understanding. In all my ways, to acknowledge Him and He will direct or make my path straight.

In the same day, I had a personal experience where the Lord challenged me about the lordship of Christ in my life again as I was confronted with God being my Jehovah Jireh, My Provider. I was asking the Lord for a particular item and did not want to subject myself to ‘easy’ provision but I decided as the word of the Lord came to me, that I would trust the Lord completely for His divine provision because He is a Heavenly Father who loves me and if I ask for eggs, bread or fish will not give me a scorpion or a bad gift. Instead, I believe that God will provide me with His very best.

 

 

My Lovely Shepherd

11 May

Read Ps 23 and was meditating and praying on new pasture that the Lord would be taking me into in the next season. I am excited that the Lord is my Shepherd and there will be no other that I will turn to.  He will make me lie down in green pastures and will lead me beside still waters.  He restores my soul and He leads me in paths of righteousness for His name’s sake.

.. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

 

Ps 22

10 May

Read Psalm 22 today and the Lord spoke to me that I am not forsaken and that He took me out of the womb, made me trust when I was at my mother’s breast. He is not far from me and when trouble is near, He is there to help me.  Many ‘bulls’ may surround me, causing fear, intimidation or even encircle me and gape at me with their mouths like raging and roaring lions and I may feel like being poured out like water, bones are out of alignment, heart is like wax … yet God is very near to me.  I can still declare the Name of the Lord to my brethren and in the midst of the congregation, I can still praise Jesus! I will choose to fear the Lord and glorify Him!

Praying much for those going to this weekend’s encounter, especially for Belinda and Dolores…. Claiming their healing, deliverance and salvation!!

 

A Big Big Mother's Day Surprise

9 May

I am still in shock …. Do not know how to begin writing today’s devotion for the blog….

I had such a wonderful surprise after the prayer meeting tonight when Alice and Grace passed me a Mother’s Day gift from the entire tribe. It was an OSIM Massager which could be used for the entire body – legs, thighs etc etc…. Am I ageing and showing signs of aches and pain?? Haha! I really felt pampered and spoilt by them… I have such a delightful spiritual family! I feel so blessed and privileged and told them that they must visit me more often and enjoy the massager together with me …. Hee hee!! Longer G12 meeting nights from now on ….. Thanks so much gals … I will definitely take time to enjoy it!!

I read Ps 19 today and the Lord was using His WORD, like an arrow to shoot into my heart and tell me that the law of the Lord is perfect and it is reviving my soul.  The statutes of the Lord are trustworthy, making wise the simple.  The precepts of the Lord are right, giving JOY to the heart. The commands of the Lord are radiant, giving light to the eyes.  The fear of the Lord is pure, enduring forever. The ordinances of the Lord are sure and altogether righteous. 

As I meditated on this, the Lord urged my heart just like David asked … ,”Who can discern his error?” Forgive my hidden faults, secret faults and presumptuous sins…..

My prayer for myself and all my gals today was … May the words of our mouths and the meditations of our hearts be acceptable to you, Our Lord, Our Rock and Our Redeemer.  Let’s be the holy and pleasing WARRIOR of LIGHT to Jesus!

 

 

 

My All

8 May

Read Psalm 18 today and had many opportunities to tell the Lord how much I love Him because He is my Rock, my strength, my deliverer, my God in who take refuge. Indeed He is Our Shield, the horn of our salvation, our stronghold.

I was filled with so much of thanksgiving to God for Aunty Venus… We were so worried for her last evening when the doctor said that she kind of contracted a flesh eating virus which caused pus on her swollen leg. We know that God has come through for her when I received an sms from Dawn today ," Hi, just to let you know - the new drug professor gave mum worked and suppressed the bacteria so there is no need for an operation. Thank you for all your prayers."

Indeed God is a miracle-working God. He really heard our distress call for help last evening and heard our voice and our tears to come before Him and He honored our prayers and He loves Aunty.

Vs 35 Today the Lord taught me a very precious lesson about why He'd stoop down to make me great … or why His gentleness makes me great. I was meditating on it the entire day and at the end of the day, I came to this conclusion …. It's because I belong to Him. It's such a simple truth yet it took me such a long time before my spirit could actually grasp and receive what the Lord had to share with me … His token of love for me today!! My, was I awed!!

Now I guess I can go to bed ….. ☺☺ yawn yawn!!

 

My Vindicator

7 May

Read Ps 17 today and the Lord reminded me that He is VINDICATOR. That I will be able to stand before the Lord and allow the Lord to probe my heart and examine me at night … that though He test me, I will be found pure and holy and that I will resolve that my mouth will not sin. I had an extraordinary encounter last night with the Lord in my sleep tarrying with me and I felt the comfort and love of the Lord as I allowed Him to search and speak to my heart …. It was such an awesome presence! He was indeed downloading something about my inheritance to me. I am learning to visualize the promises that He has given to me. How sweet!!

The Lord reminded me to keep myself from the ways of the violent and to keep to His paths so that my feet will not slip. Recently, I have seen many injustices and had to ask the Lord to protect me and guard my lips from speaking. Thank God for his protection and am asking Him to keep me as the apple of His eye and hide me under the shadow of his wings.

 

Psalm 16

6 May

Read ps16 an asking the LORD to preserve me for in HIM I put my trust.  You are my LORD, there is NO GOODNESS apart from GOD…prayed that God would be the portion of my inheritance and my cup..asking Him to main my lot, lines falling to me in pleasant places and claiming a good inheritance.  I want to open my mouth to declare and bless Him coz He has given me counsel and my heart instructs me at night.  I want to set the LORD always before me and I shall not be moved!  I’m completely well – Tx GOD! Yeah! J

 

God's Strength

5 May

Read ps41 where I am claiming the strengthening of the LORD in my bed of illness and GOD’s promise to sustain me on my sickbed.  Have been in bed 2 whole days and still weak and faint.  I had a black-out experience in the loo today and had to cry out to the GOD to be merciful to me and cause me to rise up again!!

 

Trust In The Lord

3 May

Read ps37 coz the LORD was urging my hear to do right in the midst of uncertainty, injustice and pain.  Trust in the LORD and do good.  Dwell in the land and feed on His faithfulness or cultivate faithfulness.  How? Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him…enjoy and savor the WORD of GOD coz it brings nourishment, refreshment in life!

Zacchaeus

2 May

 

Read Lk19 about Zacchaeus and his encounter with JESUS as a parallel to Zech 8:21-23. Again, I am reminded to seek hard after the heart of the LORD...because just like Zaccaeus who sought hard after Jesus...even through the crowd and tree. Sometimes our heart feels like him, 'small in stature' but JESUS will not pass us by because he wants to come and sup with us and bring salvation to us and our household. The son of man comes to seek that which was lost...claiming a deeper longer and presence for JESUS.

100K Fears

1 May

 

Read 2Cor3:2-6 and was pondering on the 100K campaign and inadequacies surfaced. THE LORD reminded me that my confidence and my adequacies come from CHRIST ALONE, because HE made us ministers of the new covenant so that we can be the fragrance and aroma of CHRIST to the world. As we raise up the Gideon's Army, the 300 committed were chosen. Why were the rest not chosen? Because they put their heads in the 'water' of worldliness, fear, self...and unable or did not want to trust and serve GOD wholeheartedly. Where are we?

 

Zech 13

30 Apr

 

Read Zech 13..about GOD's judgment against the shepherd, even those close to Him. A word that 2/3 of the whole land will be struck down and perish, 1/3 left and refined like silver and tested like gold...they will all on the NAME OF THE LORD..yes, Zech means YAHWEH SAVES! We want to be counted worthy to be tested and proven faithful and true.

 

Shepherds

29 Apr

Read Zech 11 about the prophecy of the Shepherds.. “ For indeed I will raise up a shepherd in the land who will not care for those who are cut off, nor seek the young, nor heal those that are broken, nor feed those that still stand. But he will eat the flesh of the fat and tear their hooves in pieces. Woe to the worthless shepherd, who leaves the flock! A sword shall be against his arm and against his right eye. His arm shall completely wither, And his right eye shall be totally blinded.

The Lord reminded me to be a responsible, discerning and wise shepherd to care and love our sheep especially those who have strayed away or those who may not be in the vision yet. As we desire the position of an overseer in 1 Tim 3:1, we desire a good work. We must be blameless… sober-minded, of good behavior, hospitable, able to teach; not given to much wine, not violent, not greedy for money, but gentle, not quarrelsome, not covetous, one who rules his own house well, having his children in submission with all reverence … , not a novice, lest being puffed up with pride he falls into the same condemnation as the devil. Moreover, he must have a good testimony among those who are outside, lest he fall into reproach and the snare of the devil.

Thank God that He gives us very pragmatic training as we allow Him to disciple us to disciple others!

God's Wrath

28Apr

Read Zech 10…God’s anger burned against the shepherds when the people strayed and were in trouble because they had NO shepherd.  God reminded me to take responsibility for lost and strayed sheep, those whom the LORD entrusted to our care, to go for them like how JESUS did when he left the 99…total abandonment.  We can give to our sheep because GOD has deep mercy and love for each of them and will be their GOD…v6 GOD will also whistle for them and gather and redeem them.  What a partner we have!

 

A Call To Return To Wholeheartedness

27Apr

Zec 9..a reminder of the 2^nd coming of Jesus as it was prophesised.  A call to return to the Lord wholeheartedly because He makes us like a warrior’s sword – precise and acute to come against Satan’s scheme.  Then God will appear and His arrow will go forth like lightning…in the dreadful day of calamity.  God will defend us and save us as the flock of His people – we are precious because He calls us stones of a crown, sparkling in His land – find our significance in Him and long for His return which gives hope and courage.

 

 

God is With Us

26Apr

Have been meditating on Zech 8 that God wants so much to strengthen our hands, promise peace for the seed, vine yielding fruit, land yield produce, heavens giving dew and we are the inheritance of these things.  Also as we entreat the favor of the Lord, He promised that 10 men from nations will grasp the garment “Let us go with you for we have heard that God is with you”.  Wow! As we prepare for the 100K campaign, praying that people will grab our clothes and ask why we have hope in such difficult times.

 

Zech 7 Fast

23 Apr

 

Felt God leading me into Zech 7 fast...dispense true justice and practice kindness and compassion each to his brother, do not oppress widow or orphan, stranger or poor and do not devise evil in heart against one another. Praying that my heart be tender to hear the law and the words which the Lord sent by Holy Spirit...v13 - fear of being abandoned by God.

 

A New Anointing

22 Apr

 

Continued to read Zech 3:5...put a clean turban on his head...a new mantle, a renewing of mind to have a new anointing...to have wholehearted devotion and give ourselves to Him daily.

 

God is Our Deliverer

21 Apr

 

Ps 18...God's deliverance comes coz HE delights in our righteousness. Asking God to light my lamp, enlighten darkness so I can run against a troop and leap over a wall. He is my shield, arms me with strength, makes my way perfect...and His gentleness will make me great...in vulnerable and inadequate state.

God's Ways

20 Apr

 

Zech 3 … indeed as we walk in God’s ways and keep His commands, we will have governmental authority and anointing to do the right things and walk into places that God will open for us. Also that we will invite our neighbors under our vine and under our fig tree.