An Open Door??

God opened a wide door for me in KA today in a Childcare Centre and I felt rather overwhelmed at the extent of the invitation. It was basically to do Enrichment Programmes with the kids aged 4-6 years old. Wow! On 21 Aug, I was supposedly to prepare to meet 39 Centre Principals to present the package to them with a trial.

At the first instance when I heard that I had to do a presentation, I 'chickened' out. I was filled with much fear and I nearly wanted to back out and asked if there were other alternatives. Sigh, guess not! On hind side, the Lord gave me ideas and relevant insight with regards to connecting with them ... although I still feel uncertain and terribly lonely.

I had so many doubts in my mind that I felt lost and kept questioning ...

Firstly, why were there no other 'competitors' when there are so many vendors out there? Secondly, what did God see in us to grant us such favor with 39 centres? Thirdly, why do I have so little faith to believe that God has something good installed for us?

This caused me to realise that I have limitations but have forgotten to see that 'With God, All Things Are Possible'. Also, I was so concerned to see my own puny, frail, inferior, measly ways and have not overcome the fact that if God is for us, who can be against us? He is the One who opens doors that no man can shut and will shut doors that no one can open ....

I just finished reading a book entitled 'Marketplace Miracles' by Rick Heeren and I was reminded that God uses the ordinary things in our lives to turn it extraordinary. He wants to be our 'Partner' in the Business and wants us to 'pastor' the city through the works of our hands. Guess, I must be willing to submit myself fully to Him and allow Him to do what He wants with me, although very difficult. Just as we prayed together at our G12 meeting last Wed, I pray that we will seal the decision in our hearts that we will serve and love the Lord, no matter what!

Please keep me in your prayers as I seek the Lord and wait.