A Quiet Dissatisfaction

4 July

I was struggling today about my walk with the Lord in the area of giving as there was a quiet dissatisfaction in my spirit. And I cried when I picked up my half-read book – Driven by Eternity because the Lord began to speak again to me that when we serve, do we do those things to gain recognition and acceptance? When we stand before the Lord on Judgment Day, what would the Lord say to us? Would it be … “When you give a dinner or a supper, do not ask your friends, your brothers, your relatives, nor rich neighbors, lest they also invite you back, and you be repaid. But when you give a feast, invite the poor, the maimed, the lame, the blind. And you will be blessed, because they cannot repay you; for you shall be repaid at the resurrection of the just.”

What are our intentions and motives for giving to the kingdom of God and to those in need? This is a sober thought as we prepare our hearts for the 100k. Do we end up giving out of guilt or compulsion rather than out of compassion and love? The story of the widow who put her 2 mites into the offering box gave more than all the others because the others had spare of their richest, but as for her – poor as she was, gave all she had to live on.

Do I dare to trust the Lord to give all that I have to live on, my very all, to sow into the kingdom of God and to those in need? I want to trust the Lord that He will multiply my 5 loaves and 2 fish for the extension and expansion of His kingdom.